Want renewed Joy?
“Put your ear down close to your soul and listen hard.” – Anne Sexton
Jingle Mingle! Dashing through the snow! Reindeer prancing! It’s that wonderful (and exhausting) time of year again.
For Trauma Survivors, the emotional toll of navigating the holiday cheer can be just enough to put us over the edge. While opening gifts around the Christmas tree, you might see some holiday cheer, but it’s probably eggnog induced! Although you may see us smiling outwardly, we’re really raining on the inside.
The raindrop-laden tears contain a mix of shame, blame, and self-loathing as we struggle to understand why our Christmas pasts weren’t the happiest memories or experiences. Often, we trauma survivors are juggling mental images from our abuse, battling the unseen war of trigger management, and simply surviving the holiday vibe while others seem to do so with such ease.
You may have a friend or family member who seems a little “checked out” during holiday gatherings. One of the best things you can do is give him/her some space; sometimes, all we need is to take a walk, disappear for a bit, or sit in our car. Please, just let us be. It’s in being with ourselves in some quiet that we can soon function better.
Re-entry to the holiday cheer may or may not happen, and if it doesn’t, please understand that re-entry isn’t easy for us. Sometimes we need to “plug out” in order to “plug in” just to endure the holiday meal, eggnog, and unwrapping of gifts that brings such a joyful zeal to the tots!
Here’s to smiling outwardly, even on Christmas!
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We ain’t talkin TURKEY so let’s reverse engineer your TURKEY DAY…
Truth be told, many Sexual Abuse survivors/victims may be in complete overwhelm and have spent days prior to the “thanksgiving meal” doing the mental chatter game. Not only are victims deciding if they should just stay home alone but they’re also juggling the notion of just how long they can last seated at that family table.
If you are one of these survivors doing mental gymnastics, here’s a few self-help, self-empowering tips you can use as you head for the Thanksgiving Table:
Step 1: Ask the host, “Approximately what time will we eat?” Then back into that time frame to arrive closest to “chow time.”
Step 2: Ask the host, “What time would you like me to arrive?” If the host wants you there excessively early, disclose that you’ve allocated a certain time for your thanksgiving day to manage your health & wellness and trying to conserve your energy to be fully present on Thanksgiving. Idol or gap time, is not beneficial for survivors; it’s a potential disaster for unknown festering to rear its’ ugly head.
Step 3: Determine in advance, how long you can tolerate hanging around after the dessert is consumed. Most people prefer up to 1 hour “lingering” after devouring the pumpkin or pecan pie!
Step 4: Offer to help clean-up or tidy-up. Consider adding 15-20 minutes to your personal timeframe for this.
Step 5: Gently announce that you’ll be leaving soon after the pie is eaten as you “don’t want to overstay your welcome!”
Here’s to doing truly remarkable reverse engineering on your Turkey Day!
For more tips to deal with Holiday turmoil, survivor stress and self-healing sexual abuse visit us at www.whoopasshealing.com. If you get triggered during the holidays, grab a free taming trauma triggers blueprint at www.abusehealed.com
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The aged old question of DO I STAY or DO I GO, is one that Survivors of Sexual Abuse are fretting over during the Holiday Season.
I’ve heard it said that the #1 cause of stress = CHOICES.
With that notion in mind, sexual abuse survivors have a vitally important CHOICE to make; to spend the holiday’s with extended family or not. Note that this choice is a very conflicted choice: do I stay or do I go is a recurring self-dialogue and dance with confusion us survivors of a crime engage in regularly but the dance gets more rigorous as we approach traditional family holidays.
Many vulnerable adults & kids are triggered by spending holidays with their perpetrator. Forced to dine, sleep under his/her roof, and even play flag football with said evil monger, with all that being said, the perp could even hold the position as matriarch or patriarch of said extended family; no wonder why it’s a conflicted choice. In short, holiday time is a natural scenario of putting abused kids & vulnerable adults in an insular, submissive, silent and dis-empowered role.
Here are some useful tips to help decipher and answer, DO I STAY or DO I GO????
DO I STAY? – Engage in the “law of substitution” and substitute doing an activity instead of feeling isolated, lonely and missing out on the family holiday event if you decide to stay home:
Tip #1: Volunteer
Tip #2: Pre-connect with a lifeline
Tip #3: Create new memories or traditions
DO I GO? – Here are some useful & practical tips to empower yourself before you head out to the holiday table if you decide to go:
Tip #1: Pre-select and memorize at least 3 Declarations/Mantras/Sayings/Quotes/Sanskrit/Mudras. Repeat it in an undertone or head to the bathroom, turn on the water faucet and say out loud several times.
Do this finger mudra under the dining table – why you ask?
Guru Singh says “Index finger mudra stimulates the brain and imparts knowledge, expands our field of possibilities, and releases us from limitations. Middle finger mudra stimulates the brain and imparts patience, wisdom and purity. Ring finger mudra stimulates the brain and imparts vitality and vigor. Little/pinky finger mudra stimulates the brain and aids clear communication.”
Tip #2: Envision your surroundings before you go
Tip #3: Calculate, decide & pre-determine the Quantity &/or Quality you want during the Holiday – this will help you to stay in control, be in control and not get to over consumption.
As a survivor of sexual abuse, getting into inspired action, taking decisive action and making highly beneficial choices can help you survive and stay out of overwhelm during the stressful holiday season. Here’s to making choices that empower you so that you don’t find yourself in HOLIDAY HELL!
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While most people have fretted over the perfect pumpkin pie recipe, Survivors of Sexual Abuse (young and old) have been fretting over that age old question: Do I stay or do I go?
Most Sexual Abuse survivors & victims alike have spent the days prior to any major holiday, especially the American Thanksgiving, knee deep in the overwhelm of “should I go be with family” or “should I stay home alone.”
What gets sticky is not the gravy that may still be lingering, but the residual from the dilemma of not sitting down at the proverbial “Thanksgiving table” you know the table that’s embellished with a dry dead bird, gluten stuffing and mashed potatoes that at times resembles the mush in the Sexual Abuse victim mentality.
Other members of the victims’ family of origin aren’t even aware that if a victim did in fact show-up to take a seat at the Thanksgiving table; it has cost them mightily to drag their almost corpselike body there. The mental gymnastics has already taken its toll on the Sexual Abuse victim body; toggling back and forth from “should I stay or should I go,” weighs heavily on a victims mindset.
Have you ever noticed the one relative that seems out of sorts and hasn’t even imbibed on any holiday liquid gold yet? It’s safe to say; they are holding that deep dark secret and ugly shame of abuse.
Once at the holiday meal, many Sexual Abuse victims are still second guessing their decision, “why didn’t I just stay home alone?” The festive meal doesn’t seem so bright; in fact, it has glimpses of dark billowy shadows.
Black Friday has a whole new meaning for victims, when that dark black cloud of Sexual Abuse keeps lingering like the spilled gravy that gets sticky & crackled dry…similar to a worn out mindset. The black is that tattoo-like image that reads “abused” that is indelible, illegible and archival; yet no one seems to notice except the victim.
It’s no wonder a Sexual Abuse victim may be relieved when there’s NO MORE TURKEY but spends a lifetime scraping off the lingering holiday gravy!
Newness of ME by e. h. miller (Copyright 2012)
“What does it cost to be alive?
I’ve been so dormant inside
Dead from the pain in my soul
But still wanting to be whole
To find the newness of ME
I don’t want to look back at her
The swirl of her agony is a blur
Birthing the new girl inside
To find the newness of ME
I’m leaving that old girl behind
I’m finding the new one inside
Emerging from my cocoon of wasted time
To find the newness of ME
Others say; you can’t do that
What about my life; you owe me more of her
Soaring above their demands; I’m lighter than a feather
As I find my own sense of heaven
To find the newness of ME”
Holiday guide to keeping Uncle Rays’ hands off your lil’ girl…
As a young girl, I used to dread the annual proverbial gift exchange at Grandma’s house during the holidays. Why? Because it meant that Uncle Ray was there to greet me with the uncomfortable hug, wet slobbery kisses, traveling hands to my chest and buttocks area, and awkwardly long glances from him as ‘a salivating wolf’ ready to pounce on his prey. It didn’t matter to my divorced Mom, as she probably wasn’t even aware; this was the time she could reconnect with her family, go shopping with her sisters & dump us kids off with cousins we pretended to like; we were there to celebrate Christmas!!!
Here’s a quick guide to reference BEFORE, DURING & AFTER the holidays with your extended family…
Pay attention to your holiday environment. Just because the smell of cinnamon cider, hot steamed tamales, spiked eggnog and family dinners recalls fond memories for YOU, doesn’t mean that your child carries that same familial fondness. Safeguard your child from the “Uncle Ray’s” of the universe and oh by the way, Happy Holidays!
© by e.h. miller